1 bulan 4 hari..

Assalamualaikum. rasanya sudah lama sgt tak berblog. so many things happened in the past few months. ada yang sedih ada yang happy.  tergerak hari ni nak meluahkan semua.  it started from last raya.  we were so happy, celebrating aidilfitri, jumpa sanak saudara.. yang menyedihkan, that was my last raya with someone that i really love, consider as my mama. alhamdulillah, sempat beraya bersama2, for the first time she came to my parents house with uncle and saudara balam, a good sign but sgt ta sangka.. itu lah juga kali terakhir dea datang. :'(

Few month before she left, dea byk bg nasihat kat sy, we even had a deep conversation together with her beloved son. talking about most of the things she wanted her son to be and also nasihat yang bagus to both of us.  igt lagi dea ckp 'plum, untie kalau boleh nak sgt ezi rapat ngan papa dea mcm dea rapat ngan untie. tp dea ni ha, yang create gap tu. bertuah punya budak. plum tlg lah ckp kat ezi ni, dea bukan na dgr, banyak main ni'. my boyfriend ezi ni terus tickled her and tutup mulut untie sbb she just can't stop blabbering to him.hehe. and we were laughing out loud. they were sooo close, mcm kawan baik pun ade. so sweet.  but alhamdulillah now ezi makin rapat dengan papa, ye lah, diorang dua beranak tu je. i believe she can see and mesti happy at last tgk diorang sangat rapat now.  they became backbone and strength for each other.

Masih tersimpan rapi lagi all the things she gave me. handbags, purse, baju, perfume, and 2 weeks before she left, she gave me a watch, and piece of bracelet together with ring as a birthday gift.  yang buat air mata jatuh lagi bila tahu from him that my second birthday dinner treat tu dea yang bagi duit suruh belanja lagi on behalf of her.  tp dea pesan kat ezi jgn ckp kat sy dea yang bagi. saat tahu tu, sy menangis. menangis kerana kehilangan orang yang baik dan menangis kerana selepas ni sy tak dpt lagi nak dgr cerita, tips2, bebelan pasal kesihatan dan awet muda, and no more call from her, no more.. :'(
Bila depan ezi sy  ta boleh tunjuk sgt how down i am sbb dea masih tak kuat. kalau time dea cerita about her and luahkan rasa sedih dea tu, sy tahan seboleh2nya tidak menangis lagi. sy kena kuatkan dea. and bring back semangat dea yang da hilang.

Terima kasih untie utk kenangan yang untie bg. sy akan simpan elok2 sampai bila bila selagi saya bernafas. bila ezi ckp untie syg plum mcm anak untie, plum sedih sgt. sbb plum pon syg sgt kat untie and uncle macam parents plum sendiri but now i lost u.  everytime tgk, it reminds me of u and i'm glad to know u even for 4 years, but the moment we had are priceless. bukan plum je, semua orang yang kenal untie sayang sgt dan rindu kat untie. we love u so much. Plum harap sangat uncle and ezi akan pulih sepenuhnya, hanya masa yang menentukan and i won't get tired supporting them in any ways. plum syg mereka juga. mcm untie sayang mereka. Nanti plum visit untie lg, insyaallah. May Allah bless your soul, Al-Fatihah..